Another Milestone Mar. 19th, 2007

Mark this spot as March 19th, 2007  The Day Kenny K. Gave Up On The Quest!
It is disheartening.  The ones I saw being here on this day cannot be here because of death.  I tried using money and communication to find a suitable companion in my walk through life.  I am not wasting anymore time on this matter.  I have and will now focus on me.  Selfish Kenny!!!  Something my friends today have not seen.  Except one of course, Stacy, but anyway.  Stacy you have seen this side of me before, the only difference here is that the lack of substances will keep me from harming others.  Unlike my personality from 12 years ago.  However, selfishness is definitely what the doctor has ordered.  I need to focus on my life.  Set some things straight and move on.  If I just Breathe as Michelle Branch would say, then maybe things will become even more clear than they are at the moment.  But I have to say my clarity is pretty good right now.  I have spent three years trying to find another woman who makes me feel good and want to make a better life for an 'us.'  But now I am beginning to realize that all the time I have spent over the past three years doing this could have been better spent in other areas.  Well, I am just venting here, but the truth still has to be said.  I am through with trying to sell myself to others.  I was more happy when I just went about my business and did not worry about others.  Hence the reasoning behind this.  The bottom line here is I am moving on...

On a lighter note, I am going to get another piece of my back done on Wednesday.  I am confident that my artist will do a great job.  Also, I am contemplating publishing 'Simplicity.'  The key word being, contemplating'.
Well, to everyone I know I hope your idea of Nirvana does not mirror mine, otherwise I would begin to think that Nirvana can never be achieved for the world as a whole.  Make the best of what you got, because there are no second chances!