I was blogging regularly for a while, it's time to get back to that... Sept. 17th, 2006

Why? 
A question I ask over and over again in a seemingly endless quest for The One.  She is a master at conversation.  She is charismatic.  She is the essence of life as I know it.  That does not mean she is the essence of life for other people.  My ONE is funny with sarcastic and sadistic overtones.  Someone whose glass is half empty; yet with high hopes of a waitress/waiter coming along to give me/her a refill.  She is leather when I am skidding on pavement.  She is the embodiment of something great but not accomplished yet.  I say not accomplished YET because I want to share in it with her.  She is corny, and dorky.  Sometimes out of step with the world around her.  She likes her cake and eats it too, but shares every bite with who ever is standing around.  She is light when I am dark, she is hot when I am cold, she is the opposite of me, yet exactly the same person.  She loves to travel, she can be happy on a beach in the middle of nowhere or dead center in the middle of a downtown city surrounded by the chaos of Corporate America.  She is Beautiful in my eyes.  Everyone elses view of her is meaningless to me.  Why?  She is an oxymoron of intricacies that envelop my mind so much I yearn to know her thoughts as she walks away.  She has life kickin her in the ass day in and day out.  Why?  Because I know she can handle it and be that more appreciative of me being a great thing in her life.  She understands the dark side of humans, yet is open minded to its power.  She lives in the light, and She is capable of understanding my every thought before I think it.  She likes the touch of my skin, she likes my eyes, she loves my thoughts, and throughout life she is The One.  The One I search for day in and day out.  I was tired of searching a couple years ago, but the past few months have been fast going.  She is out there, and I will not rest until I find her.  Even if it takes me until my last living day, I will have one moment (preferably more) but at least one moment to look in her eyes and know I was not wrong for searching.  I will not regret my life or things I do to find her.  I have no other motivation in life than to awake and find her.  I don't care about my job, everyone knows I don't care about money, I don't care about school, I don't care...  The bottom line is I will give up everything I have in order to find her.  And when I find The One, I will know that I can sit and rest.  Love and Cherish, Smile and Laugh, Joke and Play.  The ultimate sacrifice for The One is my own life.  I have given her my life already, the only problem is the face of this woman has eluded me for so long.  So many step up to try out for the position.  But if they are not The One, I cannot make them The One.  I know she is out there, I will never give up, and God cannot take me until I find her.  I made him a deal a few years back, and I am keeping up my end of the bargain.  Gracious and Humble, Hardworking, Loyal, Honest, Determined, Ambitious, Motivated, Devoted, Anxious, Charismatic, Humorous, Intelligent, Stable, and above all HUMAN.  I just have to say, there are numerous women in the world who can fit this profile, but the way I have figured it; is there is only about 35-50 of the 3.5 Billion Women in the world are actually The One.  Now you say how can that many be The One.  Well, there are variations of The One and I believe that there are a certain number of Women who actually are The One, and the first of these select few that I find, will be the luckiest woman to ever have walked on this rock of a planet called Earth.  I am not crazy, I am just a Realist, and I will not nor cannot settle for Second Place.  Give me your time, and I will give you my life.  WOW!  Well maybe I am a bit crazy, but hey what's love without an idea of what really makes you happy.  Oh, and the looks of a woman have never been part of this profile.  I have no preference when it comes to physical appearance.  I want what is inside, not on the outside.  Give me your thoughts, and I will return it with endless days of happiness and laughter...