Weird endings and yet even weirder beginnings July 14th, 2006

Distance shields itself from the worldly views of high oil prices,
Certainty is death and taxes, yet others believe in the less important things.
Gravitating towards the center of my universe, anti-newton theories,
Einstein believed that love was a force of its own, and so do I.
Riding in the dimly lit streets not caring where the road leads,
Following endless miles of pavement searching for the sand.
I want off this roller coaster so I can stand on solid ground,
Where my brain can think clearly without being bumped by potholes.
Disaster strikes and I am not wearing a helmet, I see the pavement,
Closer and closer it appears in my sight, I brace for impact.
Darkness envelops me and for once my brain shuts down,
What a peaceful feeling that would be, but tisk it is only a dream I have,
A dream when thoughts no longer come and my sight no longer sees.
It is much easier to die than to live.
Everyday I open my eyes and I know I will be one more day closer,
One more day closer to that dream I have dreamt for so long,
Today is not that day, and I must start thinking of new dreams,
The same dream over and over again that never comes true,
Its really just a nightmare cloaked in shadows of doubt and sickness,
Feel the wind and watch the pavement fly by quickly under my feet.
I don't realize that I am about to crash, this whole time I wished,
This whole time I prayed, This whole time I hoped,
This whole time I expected, and yet nothing ever happened,
Now, when I least expect it, I crash...
The brain shuts down, like I had dreamt, and my soul rises up,
I then realize this is not the dream I had, this is hell, Was I alive before?
No, I was dead before, but an awakening has occurred,
I have been tapped on the shoulder by some outside force,
Telling me to follow a path unknown to me, where man has never walked.
Only shadows, spirits, and souls reside here.  It seems like Hell.
But it is not, it is my heaven, because here I don't have to talk,
I don't have to feel, I just have to be, be, be, me...
Gracious smiles of sunlight glisten in front of me while I walk
This is the place after all, the place with one word I have always known.
Home, A place for the tired to lay their tortured souls, not hell after all.
A little heaven for me, and yet a little disdain from those who still
BREATHE!